Tuesday, July 17, 2007

He's back. She's back.

H
It’s not like I’m not doing my best. Why don’t we switch places? You think this is easy? Might be for you, not for me. I’m not crying because I’m scared, I’m just too pissed off. Yeah, maybe I am scared. Scared that he might get disappointed of me. Or they might make fun of me. But not you.

You think it was my entire fault? I was trying my freakin’ best! You don’t know what’s going on here! You just don’t know! I’m just doing what I’m told to do! It’s not like I’m fooling you or something!

What on earth do you really want me to do? Huh?! Making it hard for you!? Might be…but don’t just blow your top on me! I ain’t perfect.

Noname
You’re giving up just like that? Just one slap, and you go home crying already? WTF?! You’re such a weakling! Think of a freakin’ reason why you’re acting like this!

H
I’m not really good at explaining myself. I hated it that it made me feel like a loser. I lost. I lost because I didn’t defend myself well enough. I just took it all in. It’s my fault, I admit that, but didn’t you think I was just abiding the rules? It’s like DAMNED IF YOU DO, DAMNED IF YOU DON’T. How can you work on that? You can’t possibly make me understand things just like that.

Noname
But in this world, not everybody is nice enough to wait for you to understand. They aren’t going to wait for you. Time won’t.

H
I know. Why do I even try to make things fair? To obey?

Noname
Because you’re damn scared to screw things up.

H
Yeah, but I still messed it all up.

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