Watch Full Blast!

Yehey!
I've already passed my report yesterday. Though the Dean wasn't there, we just left it on her desk. She just have to sign my final permit, I guess. We're going to my school on monday to do it. But other than that, everything is okay...for the meantime. On April 12, we've got an orientation, this is just for the grad students and then on the 19th i think is the Baccalaureate Mass. My friend, Mhae, said that no one in our friends has attended the Retreat. She said maybe because everybody seems to be busy with their internship. So that's my sked. Not too packed!

Now, I'm going to watch, Full Blast!! ^__^

Anyway, my older sister, Nanay, wanted me to watch One Tree Hill (well, because of Luke! haha), Criminal Minds (because she said there's this cute nerd there which she totally like and she wanted it to share with me. Oh-kay.) and CSI (we just love that show. Watching it over coffee and cigs, but now she'll be the only one smoking. Good girl!)

My younger sister, Manx, wanted me to watch It Started With A Kiss, a taiwanese drama. My mom actually got lots of this Kdramas, haha.

Sheesh, maybe I really have missed lots of TV programs, my sisters wanted me to watch everything.

That's all for now.

I want eggs and cheese.

Much Love!

Korean dramas, report and the real world.

I feel totally lazy today. Don't I always?

I'm supposed to do my practicum report. Well, I still did some of it. I just have to print it now and wait for Christian's email for some of the files and print the photos. I know it's not really good, but seriously, I'm not in the mood. Been a week and still not in the mood to do all these report. Stupid me I put all the brochures and the things-that-would-make-my-report-better in the package, which is I bet still in Singapore now. My friends are a bit busy so they might haven't sent it yet.

What I did today, checked my mail, chatted, ate, watched Korean drama, slept, checked my friendster, did some report, ate and ate. Am I too lazy or what?

Anyway, I watched My Lovely Kim Sam Soon and I've been laughing alone and crying alone. It was real lovely. I actually told myself not to watch another Korean drama (after watching the whole of Princess Hours) because I need to focus on my report, but what the hell, I just couldn't help it. Oh, whatever! I'm nearly done with my report anyway and come what may.

(What the hell are you thinking?! -->Oh, Noname's back!)

Oh, and I'm graduating in my course Bachelor of Science in Tourism. Yay! 4 years = done! Now, I have to look forward to the real world and I'm totally scared of entering that world. Seriously. I don't think I'm ready yet. Yeah, I know I've experienced working, but on that one, I know I'm still a student. After April 20, my life would be totally different and I'm expected to be more responsible, more mature, more independent.

(What the hell are you thinking?!? --> Oh yeah, he's back alright. I forgot I left him here in the Philippines.)

Yeah, what the hell am I thinking? I'm being childish. Maybe, I'm just too scared. Oh well, no use for that now, everybody has to undergo this situation anyway. I shouldn't be thinking this way.

O-kay.
I think I have to go.
And eat again.
Oh my...

Much Love.

Home Sweet Home

Home Sweet Home.
Yes, I’m back to where I came from.
It’s a very nice feeling.

I came back last Sunday, March 18 2007. (But why did I update just now? Hehe.) Our flight was 1140 am. It was very sweet of my friends to us off at the airport. Some couldn’t make it but still they sent us a message, they didn’t forget.

I cried a lot at the airport. Hehe. It was all mixed feelings at that point of time. Actually, I felt that on my last week in Singapore.

As we were inside the plane, Chai, Jen and I were still crying, haha. Can’t help it, really.

When we reached Clark, I saw my mom and my younger sister there. My mom hugged me and I can really see how happy she is. My younger sister, well, I asked her to take my things, haha! Mean sister. I’m very happy to see them. My dad and brother were in the car. From Pampanga to Manila was a really long journey. I slept in car, with all of the things beside me. Surprisingly, my mom took all those things away. She hasn’t done that in years, you know. The last time that I remember was when I was a kid.

Reaching home, I got very excited. I was very happy to see my nephew, Jaco. I thought he would be aloof on me, but turns out he became friendly as he’s growing up. My elder sister and my brother-in-law were also there. I was totally screaming and I was very very loud. My brother-in-law said.

“I realized, when Jesa (Ria) wasn’t here, the house was awfully quiet.”

Haha, now that I came back, there will be someone who will shout, scream, make noise, dance around, be very talkative inside the house. Haha! I know my family found it very pathetic, but they got used to me. ^__^

I also saw my friends and my two bestfriends. I was screaming (again) when I saw them.

Looking at our house, I thought I grew tall. I got used to the hostel, it’s got lots of space. The gap from the ceiling to the wall is quite big and it’s spacious. Our house has got lots of things inside, considering my nephew’s got a lot of toys in every part of the house. I looked at my room (I share it with my younger sis and cousin), the arrangement is different. Two beds were put together, there’s a big study table to where my bed used to be. But my artworks (artworks?! Haha!) are still there. The Japanese lyrics are still there; my own memo board is still there. My closet is full of bags and my clothes which I didn’t bring, a lot of them.

That day, I felt everything was new for me. But it feels so familiar.

The next day, I went to my school to arrange lots of things. Graduation pictures, practicum report, see our profs and dean. For 4 straight days, I did that. This is the only time that I got full rest as I got very busy and I will still be busy, I’m not done with my report. Oh my goodness!

I felt really tired. Earlier, as I was watching a Korean drama (at last! Haha!), I felt sleeping but I couldn’t close my eyes, and then my head hurts, my back aches, my legs were screaming in pain. But then, I felt bored that I wasn’t doing any work. Oh, I don’t know! ^__^

Anyway, I haven’t got the chance to say thank you to everyone (I did on the tag board though.)
Thank you very much for everything. All of my friends in Singapore, thank you. You’ve been very friendly and nice to me, you guys helped me in lots of ways. When I’m bored, down, sad, and homesick; when I’m happy, you guys are all there for me and for Chai. Sorry if I ever do hurt you guys and thanks a lot, really.

I miss you guys.

The Days Left...

So fast, right? The six months that I've spent here in Singapore. I actually didn't wan't to talk about it but maybe I just needed to let it all out.

It has been one hell of an experience here. It's not bad though. In fact, I had lots of fun. Though I've had lots of problems here and there, bad experiences, to me, everything that has happened here was one of the best things I have in my life.

I am so gonna miss this.

Lots of people asks me if I'm ever coming back. I actually don't know how to answer. I guess I wanted to, though I'm not really sure if it's really gonna happen.

One, asked me if I'm looking forward to go home. Of course. But leaving is still hard.

Guess there's always what you call mixed feelings. Knowing me, a very indecisive person, now I really don't know how or what to feel. Ask me about this, the answer would always be "I don't know."

What the hell. I've been too emotional. I can't be emo like my sister. She's emo enough for me to be like this.

There's also one thing.
Someone taught me to just feel what I feel. If I'm happy, I have to be honest with it. You know, I'm scared of being too happy, right? And if I feel that way, I actually refrain myself from feeling it. Because I'm scared that I will be crying after that. But now, I've been thinking that he's right. If you're happy, so be it. Don't stop yourself from feeling it. Don't restrain yourself from doing the things that'll make you happy. You'll just be hurting yourself more if you do. Plus, you might regret it.

Okay, that's it. No more emo stuffs.

Much Love!